2016

Not everything I did in this past year 
But a few little or big, best or funny or ridiculous sidelines that kept me going and growing..

•Left the country 4 times
   -Bahamas (new)
   -Canada
   -Europe (new) +7 countries
   -Peru
•Lived on my own in the US (only had out of country)
•Bought my own first Christmas tree
•Learned more about Art
•Began to like pups a little more
•Received art in snailmail form
     (I basically cried of happiness)
•Cried over something I never have before. 
• Wrote many dumb things, funny things
 (only funny to my own selfs humour of course) horrid things, sad things, happy things, silly things mostly. 
• Learned what the word galimatias means
• Ran out of gas once
• Added a "most embarrassing story" to the books.   
           (Mainly cause that a rarity occurrence)
• Met my favourite band and didn't know what to say
• Went to a lot of concerts
• Met a lot of police on accident...
       (made up for past years)
• Now eat ice 24/7
•Now go to bed with a cup of water
• Coffee become a habitual first 
• I like driving in the rain with coffee and poptarts 
• Sunsets in different places (more places than this)
   -Canada driving to the lighthouse
   -Peru jungles
   -Peru capital sitting on a brick wall with Poli
   -Spain beach (1st)
   -My fav. stopping spot on the side of the road
   -The poop-hill with the girls
   -Driving down 64 in Asheboro
   -Asheboro Walmart Dirtpile
• Tried new foods 
       Europes. Italian pizza, gelato, French baguettes, French desserts, German dogs, Austrian pretzels, Swiss cheese, 
• Went to my favourite art museum 
         (for the 2nd time of my life)
• Was disappointed in close friends
• Was proud of and reassured by close friends.
• Opened my heart a little more
• Closed my heart a little more 
• Learned to love brussel sprouts
• Learned to love baby (grape) tomatoes 
• Despise the money making system, trap, 
endless circle of pointless nothing for a hopeless nothing. 
• Went a on cruise for the first time
• Doubles or tripled my music favourites 
      (S/O to myself for finding so many)
• Did a s/o to myself for the first time. 
      (Note previous sentence)
• Wore hott pink shorts for the first time.
• Peed my pants once

Continued

You, however, continue in the thing you have learned and become convinced of, knowing from whom you have learned them, and that from childhood you have known.

Science and Song

Sometimes you walk into a library singing to yourself like 'I'm so cold I could pee in my pants.'

And a little ole sweet lady walks by so you hum and pretend you weren't just singin'

And yeh open the door to a bundled lil man who nods his head and totters through.

Maybe you accidentally found yourself in the Science section of the floor 

Then the very young kid asks you if you really like science cause that's his love.

He tells you all the books he's read and advises you to read these ones.

He shows you the world record that one day he's going to beat.

You tell him to try cause he can do it. 

He shyly laughs but he's on his way to genius.

If only we all read our way through life to beat someones record and be a genius

If only we all laughed shyly and were half as humble.

Later there is Spotify playing all the good things.

There are so many good songs.

It makes me sad deep down that its literally impossible to hear every beautiful song ever written.

I don't know what possessed me to look up my own name for as a song.

I knew there would be nothing.

I knew because I live a life of repeating my name to every new soul asking.

I knew because there is no way.
No keychains. No bicycle license plates. No name ever.

You can imagine my freaking out finding an album lo and behold-ly. 

You can imagine my freaking out finding a song lo and behold-ly.

A sad calm song about a breakup with a girl and my name.

I didn't care. I cared about the song.

You can imagine my freaking out finding aNOTHER song

A song. not a SONG. A rap. A RAP.

A rap song about a breakup and a girl and my name.

I always knew my name was black.

I always knew she was.

I knew that other Renita out there was black.

Thank you to the boyfriend of Renita who wrote her a rap song.

Thank you for the calm one that is beautiful and the rap one that is hilarious.

Thank you for lil grown Gran's & Gramps who nod and smile.

Thanks for the little boy who told me his plan of beating the worlds record and his love for science.