Monday, July 1, 2019

You took me walking through the town

I should be sleeping 
but how can I be sleeping when its daylight at night
when I dream old dreams 
that used to mean something but mean nothing by morning 
when I wake up to pee and the temperature tells me nothing 
about what I should expect
the candle in my room is a cover for more than bad sweats and smelly socks
I remember I need to forget
forget about the stupid stomach churns I woke up with on accident
it makes my stomach turn in knots made of old anger 
and stuffing stupid tears back down again
Its dumb and I’m dumb and I try to forget about remembering 
that was rude of my dreams to remind me about something that meant nothing
that was rude of you to still sing songs that mean nothing to you
the first rain I knew here was appropriate for those forgotten songs
like she knew my tears were dried and gone but the rain still fell for me instead
how can a soul still sing about something if it means nothing?
Im trying to understand it right now but it makes me piss mad 
and I can't get through it to understand it
my window view is soft hues of pink and grays because the sun won't go down 
do people ignore the fact that they forgot about something?
are you trying to forget or don't care to keep caring?
one time I used to wake up at 4am on a steady bases for a short period of nothing
what does that count as when I'm in another time zone? 
is that why I'm awake?

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