I like to remember the time someone stopped someone from anticipating a bad year
and said "Don't say that, its gonna be a nice year."
I liked that they spoke up and didn't want them to expect the let downs we're familiar with
sometimes I want to ask them today, remember that year? Was it a nice one like you said?
but I don't
I remember playing music for someone once and it had been so long since I played
I played poorly and my eyes filled a little cause the music was watering my dry soul
music does that
its kinda like a spring watering myself to grow
I had gone too long
it took me off guard that something as simple as: playing this old song that wasn't even mine
could fill those wilting parts
and I could feel it
holy crap like soaking it up in a literal rain shower
the ones you run around in and dance in
cause your whole body is being filled
except this time I just excused myself to the kitchen and wiped away a lone tear
I remember feeling so sick on the couch once
and my 3 lil joy babies came up to me and pat patted my face with their squishy hands
asking nita why u sleepin?
and when I said I have the tummy aches
they kissed my forehead (gah so sweet) and acted like little mommies
Sometimes lately I catch myself driving without realizing my ac has been on full blast for awhile.
When that happens I throw myself back to getting into a motokar in Peru
and never even knowing AC for several months,
and by the times you feel ac again its so foreign and cold to the bone
you wonder why people need AC in the first place.
But at the same time I miss the moment of appreciation
you would soak it up because it was so rare to feel cooling air
And then here I am not noticing ac until I'm several songs into my drive
and I go "dangit Renita. u ungrateful lil bass turd. You didn't even notice and appreciate this ac."
As if I'm completely used to it.
I don't mind if I get used to something
Obviously that happens everywhere in life
But I hope I don't stop appreciating it.
Hey AC I appreciate you
Even when I forget you're on for awhile.
