wurds or doins.

Don't tell me you're honest or serious.
I don't need you to talk
You don't need to say anything.
Its all revealed in what we do.
We do what we want.
We say what we want.
And most the time.
The saying doesn't match the doing.
So I may watch your lips move
I know that words are supposed to mean something
And I may pretend that I'm listening to the words come out
But really its like a silent movie.
Where you watch their lips move.
Well, in this silent movie. I've learned
Stop watching the subtitles.
And I don't read lips yet either.
So I've learned to watch what happens instead.
As for the words matching the doing or no.
If they come true, bless you chil
If they don't. Join the worl chil
But I don't really believe in them anyway
I stopped awhile ago,
I don't know when.
No, actually.
I haven't stopped completely.
Just with most people I have.
Just the world in general.
Actually I hate that too.
Because its such a confounded thing.
'pears as though everyone one day starts losing trust
and faith. in everyone and everything.
What a pitiful.awful.ugly world this can be.
What weak.dumb.prideful.arrogant humans we are.
such focus on the stupidities and failures and misunderstandings.
and such missing the realdeal in life and
the beauty of honest good smiles and tender people.
but they are here. The beautiful ones.
They are all around us.
They exist. and we are moronic to only focus on the fails of everything.
I have beautiful people in my life.
Really, indescribable is the only word. because it describes that they can't be described.
I know them. I have them tucked in my heart.
And they will never leave.
Even when we make the blunders of this usual life cause we're all absurd humans.
It makes me feel such awful sadness to realize though,
That it takes a while, or a long time, or forever, for everyone to tuck everyone
I wish it could be anyone.
I want to believe in everyone
and believe that everyone is beautiful
and everyone is yes. I think you can see something beautiful in all
but its terrible that its hidden so much, so long.
because now everyone believes its gone.

ps.I'm sorry to appear so changeful up'ndowntown.
    Its just. We're such conflicting people.
    We're beautiful. We're brutal.
It's all crazy. It's all false. It's all a dream. It's alright.