Idk what this rollerrollercoaster is.

I'm drowning inside.
I'm dying at the thought of everything.
I'm flying inside
I'm crying at the thought of everything.
the pain and disgrace of it all.
It all is this world
and its nonsense and nonsensical people
and its deep richness and its rich deepness of people
and the horrible horrendous things people are going through
and we're all the same
and we're all different
and we all ignore that theres a problem
and we're the problem
Where is everyone letting the beauty hide?
Why is everyone hiding it
People are beautiful and there is nothing like them.
But the unfathomable things everyone goes through everyday
is tearing them up and covering and taking over their lives
and sometimes its choice,
sometimes its without realizing it
sometimes we're born in the blindness of what we're living
cause its all we've known
but there is beauty
even though you hardly see it
I hardly see it
until I realize I'm blinding myself to it
or maybe this world is crazy and insane and its goodness is hardly visible
but I'm not just going to accept it
I'm not going to accept the stupidity that keeps messing up each others lives
Has everyone just accepted it and thats why they've become it?
Everyones a mess because of hurt and pain and stupidness
But what are you gonna do about it?
I can't do anything about you or about them.
So maybe I won't.
But I'm not going to just watch it either
and do nothing. and accept that this is the horrendous world I live in
yes its horrendous and I hate it and life is stupid and people are worse
so what. I realize that.
but do something to make it more beautiful and less worse
just quit it. and change it. and stop being it yourself.
I hate change and I love change
its the worst thing and the best thing
its the hardest thing and sometimes the easiest thing
its just usually the least desired
One minute I'm angry at the ugliness of everything
and the next I'm standing up for its beauty
what is liiifeee
who is it and why is it like this?
If you don't know.
Figure it out.
Stop just asking the questions.
Find the answers.