Being vulnerable and honest is uncomfortable
Why is that?
If we can't even trust the ones closest to us
or maybe not even close to us
or anyone for that matter
Who are we even trusting?
Ourselves?
You trust yourself to everything you hold?
Where does that put you.
What does that turn you into?
What happens when one day you wake up and you're so out of line with everything
because you've only trusted yourself.
You've only gone by your own rules.
By what you think is right.
By your own good standard.
why?
because you can't "trust" anyone else?
because everyone else is a terrible human being?
because everyone else has messed up and turned into self-centered robots
self-centered robots
self-centered
self
say that again?
the very act you're trying to stay away from...
you deliberately choose to become
....by not trusting in anyone
by not having accountability with anyone outside yourself because of your own "lack of trust"
by not having accountability with anyone outside yourself because of your own "lack of trust"
isn't that what got everyone to the place they're in?
Isn't it because nobody trusts anyone enough
and we think we're somehow able to hold ourselves accountable?
What. NO.
You can't hold your own self accountable!
Who do you think you are?
How can we think because we've gone through something so terrible in our life,
that possibly someone around us hasn't experienced
that it gives us the right to think we've no need to be honest
as if it gives us a right to think we're more trustworthy than others
as if it somehow gives us more capability to be better so we've no need to "rely on people"
because thats what trusting really is
thats what it mostly is
admitting your own weaknesses or struggles
admitting you may need help from (oh no) someone outside yourself (gasp)
and you can't tell anyone because...?
...you can handle it?
you can handle it just as much as they did.
let that be your reminder
you're just as human as everyone else.
as if it somehow gives us more capability to be better so we've no need to "rely on people"
because thats what trusting really is
thats what it mostly is
admitting your own weaknesses or struggles
admitting you may need help from (oh no) someone outside yourself (gasp)
and you can't tell anyone because...?
...you can handle it?
you can handle it just as much as they did.
let that be your reminder
you're just as human as everyone else.
The audacity we have to think we could ever do something good on our own.
How prideful it is.
how prideful we are.
we pridefully only trust in ourself and don't look to others or even Jesus
and we think they don't got it.
and we think we got it
whats wrong with being uncomfortable?
we can't handle it?
so instead we let ourselves turn into self grown pigs?
because accountability is uncomfortable
and trust is uncomfortable
and vulnerability is uncomfortable
and being honest the same
and basically
we just need to get over ourselves.
idk.
idk much about anything really.
i was just thinking about trust and people and people talking about real issues inside themselves
and I get the whole idea of how hard it is to be open and trust
I get that we're dumb humans with emotions that worry about stupid opinions anyone might have
But its more than that
its so much bigger than that
But we let ourselves stop at some lame cause like that
and so of course we're all gonna end up how we are.
idk
idk again.
I was just thinking about trust and people and people talking about real issues inside themselves
and I was seeing the side of myself in why I don't trust
and obviously this isn't the only reason why
and I didn't even mean to bring this side of the trust issue up
but thats all I did
because I started seeing the fact that people won't trust because of their pride
(yes I know not only that of course)
but that very little fact ... (not so little cause it actually plays a huge part.)
but that fact made me really mad, really fast.
Pride always makes me mad
I'm prideful
I make myself really mad
so thats why it turned to that
sorry.
Probably nothing makes sense
huhu welcome to the world
we pridefully only trust in ourself and don't look to others or even Jesus
and we think they don't got it.
and we think we got it
whats wrong with being uncomfortable?
we can't handle it?
so instead we let ourselves turn into self grown pigs?
because accountability is uncomfortable
and trust is uncomfortable
and vulnerability is uncomfortable
and being honest the same
and basically
we just need to get over ourselves.
idk.
idk much about anything really.
i was just thinking about trust and people and people talking about real issues inside themselves
and I get the whole idea of how hard it is to be open and trust
I get that we're dumb humans with emotions that worry about stupid opinions anyone might have
But its more than that
its so much bigger than that
But we let ourselves stop at some lame cause like that
and so of course we're all gonna end up how we are.
idk
idk again.
I was just thinking about trust and people and people talking about real issues inside themselves
and I was seeing the side of myself in why I don't trust
and obviously this isn't the only reason why
and I didn't even mean to bring this side of the trust issue up
but thats all I did
because I started seeing the fact that people won't trust because of their pride
(yes I know not only that of course)
but that very little fact ... (not so little cause it actually plays a huge part.)
but that fact made me really mad, really fast.
Pride always makes me mad
I'm prideful
I make myself really mad
so thats why it turned to that
sorry.
Probably nothing makes sense
huhu welcome to the world
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