View from a wheelchair

I need to sleep
but how can I sleep when there's this captivating Alaska outside my bedroom
and it stays daylight in the middle of the night.
A lil old man just rolled down the sidewalk in a wheelchair
He asks me how the evening is going.
After his warning about being aware of the beautiful surroundings (thank you for reminding me)
 he says
"Oh and by the way. I stepped on metal, caught Tetanus and had to have all my toes cut off.
That's why I'm in this chair."
He told me how the liquid in the bag is helping heal his foot. (mmgrose sorri)
He told me how long it takes and how it goes.
 "Lemme tell you. It is crazy and it is scary.
Well, good eveni.....oh! You have freckles!
You have a LOT of freckles on your shoulders!
You have them all over!
They're perfect for just grabbing a pen and making all the dots into little stick figure people!
Wouldn't you think? Well, just a thought.
You have a good evening Miss"
I busted out laughing inside and out (he was a good one to get both)
I wished him goodnight.
My freckles have heard a lot of comments,
but this is finally a genius one
this lil oldie goldie with no toes on his right foot made them into stick figured people
this is my kind of people
where are his kind hiding?
He reminds me of something I wrote once of freckles and friends. I will find it for you and myself to remember
Thank you for adding "Oh, by the way I lost my toes"
Thank you Alaska for being daylight at night
Thank you Sir for making the freckles on my shoulders into little stick figures.
You are a rare one to find
I love that you enjoyed your surroundings of Alaska from your wheelchair,
I love that you have an imagination and you showed it in a 4 minute conversation.
I'm so glad you came rolling by in your wheelchair and I'm sorry you lost your toes.

somewhere someone's someplace

What if you love rice for dinner and you eat a whole plate full
What if you listen to the same playlists over because they're your best friends
What if the only mountains you can see in Alaska are in the left corner of the sky
so far away and so huge they made you stop dead in your tracks
what if you wanted to see them today but the clouds were a little rude and hid them all day
what if you cry while eating rice by yourself cause you think about your conversation with your Dad
and everything over 5 years of time
what if you need to do school but your brain can only think in feelings right now
What if you thought about talking but you wouldn't know what to say
What if you feel so much you don't feel anymore

si la música te sobrepasó

The unison of the music
reaches places in my depths
It takes me to the heart wrenching places I've been trying to aviod
It brings me back to the moments I've ignored
It throws me into a rushing river. I'm stuck in its currents
I can't swim my way out, it overtakes me and throws me to the depths
I soak in it
It tells me everything I've done wrong and where I am
It tells me what a fool I am
It shows me all I've neglected
the deeper side we push aside
It reminds me of pleasant times
It reminds me of the good thats left
It reminds me of the things I've forgotten to miss
It tells me don't forget
Don't forget the good
the bad
everything thats made you
Its a keeper of my memories
It breaks me
It gives me hope
It holds me
I try to write the words I feel
they're gone. I can't find them
the music stole them
They asked me if I would play for them
if I would play my own songs
I couldn't play my songs
I'm out of touch with them
I can't connect with them now
I can't play them like that
I would be betraying my own self
They asked if I would play anything
I don't like to. It's out of my comfort-zone
to heck with comfort zones
I play
It reminds me of too many things
my eyes git a little watery
almost caught me
I turn my head and hope it goes unnoticed
darn you music
always catching up to me
putting me in my place
an alleyway to the places I can't neglect
I'm not trying to avoid, neglect, or ignore
I'm not scared of having do something for change
I just don't know what is that something
I'll face it
but what more am I doing than staring it down
what more right now
I'm standing in the water building up around me
slowing taking over my surroundings
I'm glued to the ground unmoved
untouched by the water rising up around my feet
blankly willing myself to feel
paralyzed by the overload thats taking over
will I survie?
How do I make myself go on