The unison of the music
reaches places in my depths
It takes me to the heart wrenching places I've been trying to aviod
It brings me back to the moments I've ignored
It throws me into a rushing river. I'm stuck in its currents
I can't swim my way out, it overtakes me and throws me to the depths
I soak in it
It tells me everything I've done wrong and where I am
It tells me what a fool I am
It shows me all I've neglected
the deeper side we push aside
It reminds me of pleasant times
It reminds me of the good thats left
It reminds me of the things I've forgotten to miss
It tells me don't forget
Don't forget the good
the bad
everything thats made you
Its a keeper of my memories
It breaks me
It gives me hope
It holds me
I try to write the words I feel
they're gone. I can't find them
the music stole them
They asked me if I would play for them
if I would play my own songs
I couldn't play my songs
I'm out of touch with them
I can't connect with them now
I can't play them like that
I would be betraying my own self
They asked if I would play anything
I don't like to. It's out of my comfort-zone
to heck with comfort zones
I play
It reminds me of too many things
my eyes git a little watery
almost caught me
I turn my head and hope it goes unnoticed
darn you music
always catching up to me
putting me in my place
an alleyway to the places I can't neglect
I'm not trying to avoid, neglect, or ignore
I'm not scared of having do something for change
I just don't know what is that something
I'll face it
but what more am I doing than staring it down
what more right now
I'm standing in the water building up around me
slowing taking over my surroundings
I'm glued to the ground unmoved
untouched by the water rising up around my feet
blankly willing myself to feel
paralyzed by the overload thats taking over
will I survie?
How do I make myself go on
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