Bookshelf of 2018

Books are gr888t.
Guys. If you're not always in the middle of at least one book. What are you even doing?
I'm one to talk cause the whole month of August apparently slipped by and I didn't do any reading.
I don't know what happened to me then, but I am recovering and making up for it.

Heres a list of Books I've read this year..
Some were physically read (about 15) some were Audiobooks..
The majority were Audiobooks that I listen to while driving or cleaning houses.
(This made me realize how many hours I'm driving and cleaning)
Also. If anyone dares to tell me Audiobooks don't count as books
I'm willing to assume you're probably not very well read yourself
If you're going to say a book doesn't matter because you hear the words instead of read the words
than you're not understanding the point of books
This is not very organized... I don't have time to alphabetize anything
Plus even if I did, I wouldn't. Because thats not important to me

BOOK                                                        AUTHOR                MONTH
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea                  Jules Verne                January
Around the Wold in 80 Days                              "                        June

Persuasion                                                  Jane Austen               January
Northanger Abby                                                 "                       February
Pride and Prejudice                                              "                       May

Wuthering Heights                                   Emily Bronte               February
Jane Eyre                                                  Charlotte Bronte          February
Villette                                                      Charlotte Bronte          December
The Tenant of Wildfell Hall                     Anna Bronte                November

For Conscience Sake                                Thomas Hardy             March
The Withered Arm                                             "                          March
Fiddler of the Reels                                            "                          April
Far From the Maddening Crowd                        "                          November

The Great Gatsby                                      F.Scott Fitzgerald         February
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button               "                          May

The Pit and the Pendulum                         Edgar Allen Poe           March
The Facts and the Case of M.Valdemar              "                          March
The Cask of Amontillado                                    "                         March

Measure for Mercy                                   William Shakespeare    March
Hamlet                                                                "                          March
Macbeth                                                              "                          March
A Midsummer Nights Dream                             "                          April

The Land that Forgot Time     (Caspak #1)   Edgar Rice Burroughs     October
The People that Time Forgot  (Caspak #2)                 "                          November
Out of Times Abyss                (Caspak #3)                 "                          July

Six of Crows          (Six of Crows #1)          Leigh Bardugo            September
Crooked Kingdom (Six of Crows #2)                     "                        September

Shadow and Bone (Grisha Verse #1)            Leigh Bardugo            October
Siege and Storm   (Grisha Verse #2)                        "                       October
Ruin and Rising   (Grisha Verse #3)                        "                        November

A Grace Disguised                                      Gerald Sittser                January
The Art of War                                            Sun Tzu                         February
The Invisible Man                                       H.G Wells                     February
The Awakening                                           Kate Chopin                  February
The Scarlet Pimpernel                                 Emmuska Orczy           March
Sleeping Beauty                                          Charles Perrault            April
The Children of Odin                                  Padraic Colum              May
How to Think like Leonardo Da Vinci       Michael J.Gelb              May
Wild at Heart                                              John Eldredge                June
The Adventures of Robin Hood                 J. Walker McSpadden    September
The Dark Web                                            Geoff White                   October
The Jester                                                   Michael J.Sullivan         October
Crime and Punishment                               Fyodor Dostoevsky        November
The Letters of Lord Bryon                         Lord Byron                     November
Sons and Lovers                                         D.H Lawrence                December
The Lifted Veil                                           George Eliot                   December

Jan      (3)
Feb     (7)
Mar    (9)
April   (3)
May    (4)
June    (2)
July    (1)
Aug 
Sept    (3)
Oct     (5)
Nov    (6)
Dec     (3)

Total Books  46

Currently Reading:   War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy
(but probably won't finish before the end of the year)

Also to remember and keep track of all these books I use GoodReads
https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/78757500-renita
It has my bookshelf of last year and anything I'll keep adding
I find suggested books from the real bookies out there
be one of them

What is it?

I feel it fading

Its draining out. Its emptying

it

what is it

I don't know exactly

but its leaving me 

and I don't know how to keep it

Its something good 

that I'm supposed to hold onto

but the fight in me is dying

its slipping away

is IT the fight?

is it?

I don't know

I feel the hope fading

I feel the fight not trying as hard

almost numb

not quite. but ohhh you're halfway there. Ooh living on a prayer

thanks Bon Jovi. 

How do I keep hold of what I know is dear and should endure 

if the fight for it is dying

if 

you know what
I don't have all the answers
butOH. I just remembered I forgot my Nisu toast in the toaster oven yesterday
and thats it (not the it from above) ... thats what was missing all day yesterday
you know when something is off all day?
well that was it.. I forgot my Nisu
Apart from that...
Something is still trying to fade
I can feel it.. I don't know exactly what.
but here I am to find out what.
cause when I find it, and if it shouldn't be
its gonna be in for a treat.
triple that baby up
Its something to do with having the strength to fight for what I know I should
something about happiness and joy (but are those actually real... lesss be rilll)
something to do with enjoying life and hoping in good things
and seeing real beauty left
and
I can tell my soul isn't doing its job of filtering out what everyone eventually feels about life (poop)
thats not going to be something I give in to
never seeing beauty anymore
Cause for all I know theres a Nisu in a toaster somewhere that I forgot
and now its a treat
and its beauty

Does any of this make sense?
prahnah. Renita you're a little fricked up I think
This is partly me carrying something heavy I don't understand
and partly me trying to lighten the load by seeing the beauty in the Nisu my sister made and I still have the ability to enjoy it
even more because she made it
and I see that beauty and
its all crazy! It's all false! It's all a dream!
Its alright