excerpts from midnight songs on the porch with my God

It is well with my soul
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate
Tu fidelidad es grande 
Tu fidelidad incomparable es
Todo el mundo te verá y 
El poder de de tu amor
Mi señor 
Y solo tú, llegas a los perdidos
Y solo tú, curas todas heridas
Y solo en ti pondré toda mi fe
Y solo en ti
confiaré
I never saw all the formulas I created 
I want to want to walk inside the cool of the day
with the simple affections of your heart 
All I need and all I want and 
All I get for it 
Abba, all I know is 
Abba 
I belong to you
Sometimes I make life a simple song 
Singing and dancing 
Your father's love
Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide til evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?
Well I know.
My redeemer
All of creation testify
This life within me cries
my redeemer lives
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken 
That the payment for my sin
Was the precious life he gave
I can't control what tomorrow will bring
But I know here in the middle
is a place where you promise to be
I'm not enough 
Unless you come
Will you meet me here again 
Cause all I want
Is all you are
In my weakness your glory appears
I'm not enough
The Lord is in the place...
Come Holy Spirit.
Santo señor
Digno de toda adoración
Misericordioso y fiel
La tierra siente tu majestad
La tierra canta de tus maravillas
En mi corazón 
Canto aleluya, aleluyah 
Eres mi salvación 
A todo el mundo 
En cada lengua 
Proclamaremos
Aleluya
Your love is proud 
To be seen with me
You don't hide yourself
Your love is a fire
Your love is a light
Your loves not passive 
It's never disengaged 
It's always present 
Your love is beyond 
Tune my heart to sing thy Grace
Teach me some melodious sonnet
sung by flaming tongues above 
Hither by thy help I've come 
Jesus sought me when a stranger
Wondering from the fold of God 
 Interposed his precious love 
 O to grace how great a debtor
 Daily I'm constrained to be
 Let thy goodness like a fetter
 Bind my wondering heart to thee 
 Prone to wonder, Lord I feel it 
 Prone to leave thee, God I love
Here's my heart 
Take and seal it for thy courts above 
Take my ransomed soul away
You are more then enough
You were there all along 
How I'm convinced of Your love
You are faithful
I know you're not going to change
O God, my father
How great is your faithfulness
Why should my heart be afraid?
For your mercy never failed me
And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
I will sing of the goodness of God
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
I love your voice

You're everything to me
With every breath that I am able
I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God

Let my life sing of the goodness of God

thats what made it moroniful

it was something funny
to get left sitting there by everybody else
Everyone got up and it was just me and you and the new one
and then you had to make small talk
(forced obviously)
i sat with my feet propped up across the row of empty seats
then i laughed inside and made talk even smaller just because I could
there was a little bit of knowing there I'm pretty damn sure
I knew that you knew
I could tell and you knew it
lo vi en ti por caso de tu risa tan obvio
its fine because it was kinda hilarious to me
seeing you be so uncomfortable
ni siquiera podrías esconderlo si quierias
talk so small of "how is life?"
And I make it about life from today only
and a "yeah sure" with a half chuckle that actually said no, but sure why not today, sureee
but like my casual self likes to do I just stare them straight and smile in the face
relishing in the moment of uncomfortable stiffness between these two timelines
its funny you see
dont you see
how the turn tables
it could have been sad and made me cry
thats another world and I can't be there anymore
instead it made me die inside
do i die of laughter?
or of sadness?
ha. what a moroniful moment to have

although the smallest part of me is still tender towards the sadness of it