firyou

I don't drink your blasted ways of how you deal with not understanding.

Quit foolin'

I despise myself for being a fake
I don't want to be fake to them for asking
they're asking because they were taught to
not usually because they want to
and I respond because I'm taught to
not usually because I want to
But I despise the faker
and I despise myself for fakin
but I do anyway
because they're not really asking
they're not really caring to know
they ask because they should
and maybe I just want them to want to ask
instead of askin because they should
but go ahead with everyone else
we all know how to play the same games
we all know its fake.
ask fake. respond fake.
and nobody changes.
and it all continues.
But sometimes I don't continue with you
Because words aren't always the answer.
And I might break down while eating a burrito Easter lunch with my sister
I might break because I hate words
and I hate that people use words because they don't know what else to do
stop using words fools.
but I learn to remember.
people are blind. and don't know what is what
And I might break because I think words are stupid so its the thing to do
and I'm tired of faking words to your fake words
and I might because life is unknown and I'm tired of the unknown sometimes

Idon'tevenknow

People ask me how I am

People ask me whats my name

People just ask

I tell them what I know I should

but should I tell them what I want

no, never.
People ask how you are cause its polite

People ask my name because its a title

and when its polite titles. its just polite titles

thank you for asking.

thank you for completing your duty for today

congratulations. you passed todays test of humanity

Where's your confounded sincerity in life.

everyone wantsit everyone needsit

everyone just hidesit

why

cause we're a messedup wired human creature

that doesn't know how to feel and show that we're feeling

and insensitive and selfish to see others feel and others feeling

and we say whatever we want 

and we feel things we don't say

and we don't have it together 

cause we think we have it together

and we're prideful and not willing 

and don't see 

and don't understand

and not willing to see that we don't understand

and too prideful to see that we can't understand

the plan it planet

   I sit and try to stop thinkin'
bout life and people and whattodoins and all o' it'all
sometimes I wanna stop thinkin'
but I know. i know I gotta. And I hafta.
Sometimes its nice to just remember what you have to do today
and not plan for tomorrow because. what if it doesn't even come
but then theres this thing called life
and where you kinda have to figure out what to do with it
and where you're going and who you are and what you're doing
you know. Everyone asks you
you have to tell them something don't you
if you don't have a plan what are you then?
are you a lazy fool who is a lazy fool
what if I wanna not be like you all
all the planners and same-doing-over peoples
that all live the same lives
same lives.with different shades of voices
yay. thats exciting maybe.
but mostly not really
I don't like most your lives
why should I have to choose a life based off your standards?
who are you all to decide which life is worthy,worthwhile,estimable,admirable,ect
most these cut out boxed in planned for laid out lives.
its not my plan in life
are we all supposed to have a plan?
can some people survive with a plan cause they need it
and the ones who hate it. don't need it?
or are we wrong and they're right.
and we all need a plan and a plan and a plan a plan a plan a plan
i think we're a peckin plan it all planet
nah.i know we need some type of idea.plan.goal.mission.desire.passion.life
but i'm just talking about this everyonedothesamethingoverandover life
and when you don't choose the everyonedothesamething as us life
then they say whoareyou whatarethinking by notthinkingtodo oureverydayplannedout life
i'm thinking to not be like you
maybe thats what I'm thinkin

selfishloveandhate

love takes time
does it
does it really take time
or is it a choice
or can you even choose it
I love things I don't want to
and I hate things I wanna love
love is stupid and vain
love doesn't exist in our brains and head
maybe its nonexistent
maybe we don't even know what it is
but yet its what we need
its all we can go off of
how can we go off of something we don't understand
we don't know or get
we give least and need most
I'm not talking about cute couples with love that gives fairies in your belly
(is that even real. whut)
I mean having love for the ones you hate the most
the love you know you don't have for them
and then you hate yourself because of it
and when you hate yourself you cant love
and you're selfish and hate it
and you're selfish and can't love
and you hate yourself for hating
because you don't know love
and need it
but you don't knowitlove

whom

If everyone eventually becomes what they hate
everyone eventually becomes like the world.
the ones that hate what they become.
consume the world
and thats what the worlds become.
Because they all become each other
and they all become what they hate
i hope i never hate anything
i hope i never become them
yet as i say that
is that me hating them?
is that me already becoming the world
is that me becoming them
them who hate the world