selfishloveandhate

love takes time
does it
does it really take time
or is it a choice
or can you even choose it
I love things I don't want to
and I hate things I wanna love
love is stupid and vain
love doesn't exist in our brains and head
maybe its nonexistent
maybe we don't even know what it is
but yet its what we need
its all we can go off of
how can we go off of something we don't understand
we don't know or get
we give least and need most
I'm not talking about cute couples with love that gives fairies in your belly
(is that even real. whut)
I mean having love for the ones you hate the most
the love you know you don't have for them
and then you hate yourself because of it
and when you hate yourself you cant love
and you're selfish and hate it
and you're selfish and can't love
and you hate yourself for hating
because you don't know love
and need it
but you don't knowitlove