was that you?

i'm so clenched up I can't sleep
how can you sleep when your jaw is tight
and your eyes are draining
and your heart is hurting
how can you sleep when you need to talk to someone
but you're losing them as we speak
each day you get one step further from talking
and being eachothers person you used to be
i haven't been happy since I left you
(also before)
thats part of a song
but thats a part of me
i'm so tired of being disconnected
and tired of people
and tired of not having people and you
i'm tired of being more connected to songs
and those randoms who wrote them
they felt them
where are they
i'm tired
i want to sleep but its not my body thats tired
i'm tired inside and i don't know how or where to get rest anymore
sleep baby sleep
what are you waiting for?
(the beauty of this mess is that it brings me close to you)
it used to
but i'm watching those days slip far from us
and now i don't know
all I do is cry on a bathroom floor
writing this while jess benko sings
I'm sorry,
Oh I'm sorry